I get it now!


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Everything I was ever told about motherhood is true, I’m learning. About how magical and exhausting it is, about how the love you feel for your baby grows every day, about how spot on the expression ‘long days and short years’ is starting to feel…it’s all so very accurate.

Today I watched Ottilie purposefully, though clumsily, reach out her little hand to bat at a toy over and over again. She did it at the baby group we’d been to in the morning, patting her fist down on a little patch of orange corduroy on the sensory toy I was holding in front of her, and again this afternoon she waved her fingers over and over again at her blue elephant rattle.

It was the simplest thing, and yet it made me so proud and excited to see my baby begin interacting with the world around her in a new way.

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I remember feeling nervous, before I had Ottilie, that I’d be rubbish at entertaining her or that I’d feel silly or self conscious attending singing classes or baby groups with her.

I didn’t get it, couldn’t possibly comprehend what it’s like to see this beautiful, innocent little being you created starting to explore the world as you lay it out in front of them.

But now, as Ottilie begins to spend more and more of each day awake and alert, I treasure this time I get to spend with her and love it even more than the sweet newborn snuggles that filled our early days together. We read stories, we sing songs (‘wind the bobbin up’ always gets a big gummy smile!), we get together with her baby playmates (the friends we made during our NCT class) and attend classes and share each other’s toys.

And it all suddenly feels like it’s slotting into place!

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Everyone told me, before I had Ottilie, that after three months we’d feel like we were finding our feet. And now, as we edge into our third wonderful month together, I’m finding once again that it’s turning out to be true.

We have tricky days, and Ottilie’s cold is currently making our once easy, peaceful feeds an ordeal that test the limits of my patience as my poor baby screams inconsolably because she can’t breathe through her nose well enough to feed. Our nights vary between being as wonderful as I could expect from an eight week old baby (just one middle of the night wake up, praise be!!) to restless stretches where I spend more of my time awake and feeding than peacefully sleeping…but we’re getting there.

It’s beautiful, and tiring, and emotional, and magical, and gruelling, and I don’t think I’ve ever been happier or as in love.

Happy two months Ottilie my love! <3

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  • http://www.tanaditya.co.vu Tannya

    gosh, she’s the cutest! i haven’t been a mom before, but it’s a continuous learning process, i guess. there’s no actual textbook in motherhood and it’s rather just jump into the water. also, kids are each one of a kind, so it’s rather difficult to apply one general way to handle them all. but isn’t it the joy of the first months? learning by doing, knowing by discovering. more fun to come! :D

    happy two months, baby o! may the universe bless your little family!

  • http://www.brittonloves.co.uk Lauren S

    She is so beautiful Rosie, and I remember watching our friend raise her baby and the blocked noses were always a trouble – she actually got a special attachment for her hoover which you could use to clear out the baby’s nostrils, may be a bit much for Otillie now but maybe for the future!

    Lauren x
    Britton Loves | Lifestyle Beauty Wellbeing

  • https://www.chaptersofmay.com Anika | chaptersofmay.com

    Ottilie is so gorgeous, and it’s so great to see you so happy – loving the photos!

    Anika | anikamay.co.uk

  • Samantha Cassels

    So happy to see a new post, Ottilie is so sweet! The smiling is proof that you are doing it all right :) You need to change your bio now to include Ottilie! x

  • https://www.woodenwindowsills.co.uk woodenwindowsills

    Oh my, she’s such a beauty! Look at that amazing face! So pleased for you that it’s all slotting into place too, but the first two months have flown by! Alice xxx


  • Alex Barker

    These photos are so sweet! She’s adorable <3 And I'm so pleased for you, that everything's falling into place. I can only imagine how joyful and reassuring that is xxx

  • http://www.kayleighawright.co.uk Kayleigh

    So cute! I’m so glad that everything is all good and that you are all doing well :) Lovely photos Rosie!

    Kayleigh | anenthusiasmfor.blogspot.co.uk

  • http://www.littlemisskaty.co.uk/ Little Miss Katy

    Oh Rosie! She’s SO adorable!!! <3 look at that little grin!

    So glad to hear it's all starting to slot in to place now for both of you. xx

    Little Miss Katy

  • http://www.prettypoppypeony.com/blog Stacia

    These photos are the most precious things!

  • http://sallytangle.blogspot.co.uk/ Sally Crangle

    Oh ROSIE such beautiful beautiful photos! I’m so so pleased to hear you’re all well and oh my gosh, she’s just your double she really is. Sending so much love and thank you for sharing such lovliness with us xxxx

  • http://katealifestyle.blogspot.com Kate

    Aww my heart melted… she is a cutie pie <3 this post makes me happy

    Kate x | http://katealifestyle.blogspot.com

  • http://lizziedailyblog.blogspot.co.uk/ Elizabeth Rebecca
  • http://www.agoldenhour.blogspot.com Francesca

    Oh my, she is just adorable! I’ve been reading your blog for a long time and I’ve been loving following you on this amazing journey. Give Ottilie a big kiss from me! x


  • http://bunniesaremagic.com Aleksandra // bunniesaremagic

    She is just so cute!

  • http://natbeesfashion.blogspot.co.uk/ Anastasia

    Bless her Rosie, she is such a cute wee thing!

    I fear to become a mother yet, for a million reasons including work commitments and questions such as “how much will my lifestyle change, will I be able to travel as much again?”, that I am steadily and slowly overcoming. Seeing your love and happy faces with Ottilie definitely puts a smile on my face and makes me have a more positive attitude towards motherhood. I am looking forward to your next posts :)

    x, Anastasia

    P.S: You couldn’t have possibly chosen a better name for her :)

  • https://momentsfrommargot.com/ Freya

    She is adorable; you are so lucky!

  • http://www.laceandlilac.com Abby | Lace & Lilacs

    This is so beautiful, Rosie <3

  • http://www.fizzypeaches.com Lyndsay

    Aww this is such a lovely post. As a first-time-mum (due in Feb) it was a comfort to read as I literally have NO IDEA what I’m doing and worry about things slotting into place for me too. Glad you are getting on so fabulously, Ottilie is so gorgeous too.

    Lyndsay | Fizzy Peaches Travel & Lifestyle Blog

  • http://www.immymay.com/ Immy May

    This is just beautiful Rosie! Ottilie is absolutely gorgeous too, what a lovely smile. I absolutely love watching your journey through motherhood, it is making me super excited for when mine comes around! Hope you are all having a wonderful and magical build up to Christmas, it is going to be amazing! Immy x


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